It's been far too long since my last post. In fact, one of my new year's resolutions is to devote more time to this blog. I am not doing it for anyone out there who might be reading this, but more so for me because I have so much going on inside my head that I have to get out.

I used to write in my diary. A lot! In fact, I cringe to think what might have happened with those diaries of long ago. There is one inside my bedside table as I write this, and if my kids ever saw it - yikes!

Once upon a time, I would write when I wanted to get pregnant. I would write about my desires to have a baby, about my cycles, gripe about my mother in law, etc... Now, my baby making days are probably behind me, but I don't want that to be a reason for me not to write.

So a lot has been going on in our life lately. We started building a house! Very exciting, right? Well, not exactly. As I write this, our loan for the house has not even been approved yet. They have already framed the house. Mike and I toured the house today and it was fun to go through the house and point out where things would go in the different rooms of the house. Of course, I'm guarded, because I know there's that possibility that things could fall through.

So what else is going on in our life? Well, unfortunately, Mike was laid off from his job. I hate this because it has happened so many times in the past several years. It's never a good time to lose a job, but explain to me why companies feel the need to let a person go right before Christmas. I have hopes for him to find a job very soon, but the ball is in someone else's court right now. Did I mention that I absolutely hate to be out of control?

I have been praying like crazy for him to get a new job soon. I have been asking others to join in and pray with us for him to find a new job. He has a few leads so far, but everyone wants to wait until after the first of the year to make any decisions. It's so hard to be patient! I know that God has a plan for us, but quite honestly, I sure wish He'd hurry up and reveal His plans to us!

So it's a new year and there is a blank book in front of us, just waiting to be filled. So what do I want to accomplish in this new year and decade?

• To be a better wife. Mike gives so much to me, and I feel like I don't give as much as I take. My husband is the best, and I want him to know this every single day!
• To be a better mom. To enjoy every moment with my kids.
• To be the teacher to my students that I expect for my kids.
• To be a better homemaker. I like to think that I'm an organized person in a lazy person's body!

So it's out there. I am going to need help out there for anyone who may possibly read this to hold me accountable.

Happy New Year to all!